Liquor has that effect on humans. You did not act shamefully. Even inebriated, you troubled yourself about the safety and wellbeing of others.

( he shrugs, and turns away to glance out over the city. his recent track records with rooftop conversations has... not been pleasant, and his mind is on eric. )

You have endured something that would have broken lesser men. How that manifests in you is not weakness.